Today was another fun day. The boys were both extremely well behaved again and all of the kids participated much better. The middle school kids are starting to get their skits in order and I just need to put the Thursday night program together this afternoon.
At the same time, I was sobbing all the way home. I am shocked at how sad I am ...Let me explain. I have done the VBS music for our church for eight years now. The first year was in cooperation with the catholic church across the street, the next three years were with another woman from our church. Three years ago, she left our church and I took over as sole music leader. At that time, I revamped the entire program and it has been extremely successful. I usually come out of the week exhausted but proud of the work we did.
As this summer has progressed, I have noticed that we are one of the few churches left that do VBS in the mornings. The majority of churches have moved to evening VBS to get more volunteers. I just found out that our church is headed in that direction for next year.
As my sole income is in three evenings of the week, there will be no way possible for me to participate next year. We live a half hour from church so there is no way Steve will be able to get home from work, feed the boys and get them out to participate, even if I am not involved. I am crying as I write this. I just feel like yet another picece of my church home is being ripped from me. I put so much of myself into the VBS music program and I will no longer have that joy. My kids will also no longer be able to attend VBS at the only place they have ever known as church.
I need to stop writing because I am so upset that I just yelled at the kids. I will need to pray for peace over this and not let it affect me the rest of the week, knowing that this is my last time. I hope to return to cheerful posts later.
But for now, I need to go have a good cry...
Update...it's been a few hours and I seem to be over my PMS weep attack. I am still sad but it is just the way things are. We still have two more fun days left and I plan to enjoy them...thanks for the cyber hugs sent my way...